I was talking about feelings. you know, you'll never get same feeling everyday. maybe you'll feel happy tomorow, you'll show your biggest smile, yelling, jumping, and do somehing stupid to show how exited you are. perhaps you'll feel sad, feel dissapointed, you'll find yourself glum, dejected, and crying, you think your whole life is falling apart. your mood keeps changing all the time. That's life.
You found yourself at university. Whereas, it was only yesterday you felt the exitement of your first school. you met to new people, make friends, become a bestfriend, promised not to split, but then time flies, you grown up, you begin to distance, stop talking to them, and watch them go away with their new friends, get angry, feel lonely, then you go looking for people who care, share about your feeling, felt fit, have new friends, and it will continue again and over again..
Its the same thing when you're in love. meet someone, introduce each other, you found they're cute the way they treat you, fascinated, you try to sense every written and unwritten words they conjured. Be fond by sharing your own thoughts, comfortable in unleashing what’s inside your head. but then you relize how aching it could be. When you found yourself mislead by your own thought. When something failed to meet your expectation swiftly replaced by disappointment. Everything is twisted. What you know now did not fit to what you know then. Adapting to the change, the dissonance that happened in between. They are no longer doing the things they used to do with you. You have no courage to ask why, cause you barely know that if it once has a meaning at all.
You spend your days contemplating, pondering. Trying to find the answer why whilst trying to forget. Denying things. You surely know that you are broke. Tore into pieces, but you surely can gather it back in. But there’s this wound, which might not be healed even by time. They surely leave a mark, which once has a meaning to you, but left meaningless. but then again that is not the end of your life, you'll find someone new, fall in love, and over time is keep running, your life will keep moving..
Life will continue to be met with series of feelings, so don't ever stuck in one moment. When you're happy, feel free to laugh. If your heart broke, just let it broke cause you'll be okay. Feelings are just visitors, so let them come and go..
