Unspeakable Moments

it's been 2 month.. how are you my beloved (delusion) blogwalkers ❤️
aha!

capek ah ya sok ngemeng inggris mele, pake bahasa tercinta aja. well, it's december already! banyak sekali kisah yang sudah terjadi semenjak terakhir gua posting blog. skandal2 kisah cinta, teman2 baru, dan sekrang gua makin sok sibuk karena kegiatan UKM di kampus. awal masuk sih gua kekeuh pengen ikut EC (english club) tapi ternyata jiwa jurnalis gua lebih kuat, jadilah gua sekarang wartawan abal-abal di kampus.

but seriously, nggak nyesel sama sekali gua masuk pers. they have a half of my soul. jadi tau gimana rasanya berorganisasi, dikejer deadline, cara nulis yang bener, wawancara, i'm so having fun there.

hebatnya, gua ngerasain perbahan pesat dalam pembentukan mental gua. dari yang kalo ngomong depan umum keringetan-segede-biji-jagung sekarang jadi keringetan-segede-biji-soleng. ya itu sebuah kemajuan besar buat gua yang memang mental cemen ini.

dan dengan gua masuk sini juga temen jadi makin banyak temen. nggak maba doang, kating, dosen, tukang sapu, bibi kantin. secara gua kan wartawan. ehem.

about love, i've been taken already :p
nggak ada yang spesial, semuanya sederhana tapi kesederhanaan itulah yang jadi pemikat. just wish us can surounded by love longlast♡

but no matter how fast time flies, no matter how things change swiftly. there are some people can not be replace..

ma best pal, ma love, ma life, iip gia❤️❤️❤️ really miss you guys :''))

i hope this ashole distance can ending soon

so we can do crazy things like we did

much love.

xx

ney

let them come and go..

I was talking about feelings. you know, you'll never get same feeling everyday. maybe you'll feel happy tomorow, you'll show your biggest smile, yelling, jumping, and do somehing stupid to show how exited you are. perhaps you'll feel sad, feel dissapointed, you'll find yourself glum, dejected, and crying, you think your whole life is falling apart. your mood keeps changing all the time. That's life.
You found yourself at university. Whereas, it was only yesterday you felt the exitement of your first school. you met to new people, make friends, become a bestfriend, promised not to split, but then time flies, you grown up, you begin to distance, stop talking to them, and watch them go away with their new friends, get angry, feel lonely, then you go looking for people who care, share about your feeling, felt fit, have new friends, and it will continue again and over again..

Its the same thing when you're in love. meet someone, introduce each other, you found they're cute the way they treat you, fascinated, you try to sense every written and unwritten words they conjured. Be fond by sharing your own thoughts, comfortable in unleashing what’s inside your head. but then you relize how aching it could be. When you found yourself mislead by your own thought. When something failed to meet your expectation swiftly replaced by disappointment. Everything is twisted. What you know now did not fit to what you know then. Adapting to the change, the dissonance that happened in between. They are no longer doing the things they used to do with you. You have no courage to ask why, cause you barely know that if it once has a meaning at all.

You spend your days contemplating, pondering. Trying to find the answer why whilst trying to forget. Denying things. You surely know that you are broke. Tore into pieces, but you surely can gather it back in. But there’s this wound, which might not be healed even by time. They surely leave a mark, which once has a meaning to you, but left meaningless. but then again that is not the end of your life, you'll find someone new, fall in love, and over time is keep running, your life will keep moving..

Life will continue to be met with series of feelings, so don't ever stuck in one moment. When you're happy, feel free to laugh. If your heart broke, just let it broke cause you'll be okay. Feelings are just visitors, so let them come and go..

Replica

Came upon this article on a favouritest blog of mine, and figured out that it's actually from thought catalog Got the urge to post this on my blog, cause i couldn't agree more to what it said and i guess most of you will do the same. or maybe not.

The One Who Cares Less 

 I’ve often heard that people only start wanting you when they think that you don’t want them. It’s true; I’ve lived by it. Whether its business or friendships or especially romantic relationships, the person who cares less always seems to be the person who has the most power. At least that’s what it might feel like for the person that cares more. But I question whether this is true or not.

I have been called the, “queen of not giving a shit.” One of my many talents is that I am really good at both not actually caring, as well as acting like I don’t care. Just yesterday, some girlfriends and I were talking about boys and I quoted Almost Famous as my romance mantra, “If you never take it seriously, you never get hurt.” And it wouldn’t be the first time I’ve ultimately come off as cynical about relationships. People think it stems from really not caring; on the contrary, it stems from the fear of caring too much.

I know how to be the person who doesn’t text back, who doesn’t call back, who waits for the guy to make the first move, and who acts like I couldn’t care less whether he does or he doesn’t. Being this person comes natural to me because I have convinced myself that being the other person comes with too much potential damage. And I do think to an extent it does. I may never have truly had my heart broken, but I’ve known people who have; I’ve been there for them. And that shit isn’t fun. It’s depressing and devastating and oftentimes a really long journey to returning to being okay.

But the thing is I think people who put themselves out there; people who let you know they care a lot – I think that they have the right idea. I think the human heart especially when it’s young, is really resilient. I think that the journey to being okay when one’s heart has been broken is a journey that is usually worth facing even when love hasn’t done what you wanted. But when you’re the one who cares less, who apparently doesn’t care at all, you’ll go never go on this journey because you’ll convince yourself that you don’t need to. You convince yourself that you’re fine even when you’re not.

What people don’t seem to realize about the person who cares less or acts like they care less is that they’re usually the one who ends up being hurt the most. It is human to want love and to want to be taken care of and to want to take care of someone else. To deny that, is simply to deny one’s humanity. Being the “queen of not giving a shit” doesn’t make one healthier or stronger or wiser or cooler or even happier. It just makes you feel less human. It makes you feel, less and less.

When it’s all said and done, even people who are perfectly lonely and perfectly alone – still need their person. Whether it’s a romantic partner, a good friend, a loyal family member – everybody needs a person. And the truth is if you act like you don’t care enough, people will eventually start to believe you. So if you feel like you care too much or feel too much or love too much, remember that the alternative is worse. We should all try to seek balance because virtue is that middle ground between any two extremes. But when it comes to love, I don’t know if there is such a thing as loving too much or showing that you love too much. And if there is, I think it’s commendable; not something to be ashamed of. Because if you don’t tell people and show people that you do care, that you do have feelings for them, that you do love them, how the hell are they supposed to know?

So I suppose you can go through life thinking that eventually someone will break down all the walls that you’ve put up, because you don’t want anyone to know how much you can care; how much you can love. But life is short and people are busy. And maybe when the right person comes along, maybe they’ll see right through you. Maybe. But if you keep telling yourself that you don’t care, maybe you’ll also start believing it and you won’t even be able to see your person when you find them. So get out while you can and start giving a shit; and if your heart breaks, let it break. Because it’ll be okay. You will be okay.

 -KOVIE BIAKOLO-

best friend or good friend ?

hi there!
it's a looooong time since i leave my blog, ten days exactly. there's so many thing i have to do, saary. by the way i was officialy 17th yesterday, woohooo that was freaking me out, and i have been graduated from my high school so this time i'm going to study at university, but i don't understand what i feel now. i don't know is it good or bad. i mean, come on! university is mean that you have been grown up and quite independent to deal with real world. but in other side i feel sad because it mean i will parted with my friends, and i can't do a crazy and hilarious things anymore.

ughh.. it was complicated thing.

but no, i'm not going to share about univerisy thing. this post will be a little bit absurd post.
yesterday i see a tweet of someone i did't know. he said ...

"a good friend buy you lunch, a best friend eat your lunch"

isn't it an interesting words uh? ever since i saw it, i kept thinking about it. i try to find what it mean, and now i get it! it's about differentciate between a "good friend" and a "best friend" of a friendships. you must have friends, right? someone who cares about you, who understands your feeling, someone who would love to spend the time with you. but did you know what kind of your friendship ? is that a bestfriends or just a goodfriends ? you don't know ?. okay i will tell you the differentciate. thus, you will know what kind friendship of yours.

even though their smile describe how happy they are, they aren't best friend.

'cause a best friend is not about you smile,
but it about how comfort are you being yourself when you're together

i get a photo of beautifull celebrities.
but think they're just such of a good friends

because a best friend does not include the background of life in it
no matter who you are.

a good friend will always be nice to you

but a best friend will teach you how to be nice

a best friend wouldn't hide and close their eyes when you made a mistake

they would admonish you and show you how to be right

a best friend don't have to always be there for you

but they always with you everytime you need them

so that was my explain abot friendship. after read this you might furrowed your brow and say "OMFG, WHO THE HELL CARES ?" but i cares! and for those people who cares.. You Rock!

so wich one are yours ? a good friend ? or a best friend ?

xx

ney

Enigma

I wonder how ruthless and enigmatic could people’s mind be. How their passion continued branching and become an endless. Since they get what they want, they'll never be in contented feeling. They keep looking for a better, for them. Keep moving under this haunting continuous discontentment and sometime they decide to waste things that have been obtained.

I wonder how powerful and engaging their words could be. How you can be impressed and easily defined. Seeing the face, the look, the expression they cast upon you as they spoke. When they see you get something more than they have gotten, they'll lauding at you, catapulting sweet words. But who knows, the compliment and smiles that comes out of their mouths is a trick to hide their spite. You see what is seen. You never know the unseen.

I wonder how greedy people could be. Never feel enough to what they've gotten. Complaining, blabbering, and blaming the destiny. Always looking for an excuse to leave and go to get something better. Some people will do anything for things they want, one way or another. They fulled their head with ambition, desire, and such things that blinded them to the good and the bad. hereupon, turned them into cruel monsters.

I wonder how fast people could get bored. They judging something/one is not good for them when they do not even know that well. And how easy they get interest. They swiftly move and re persue their desires when they are not even grateful for the things that they have been obtained. And people will do it again and over again.

I wonder how pitty they could be. When they found themself tired to chase something better. When they belatedly realized that the better things is does not exist. because those "better" things are just things that we have no, and "better" things are things that we create ourselves when we feel dissatisfied and ungrateful.

And I wonder how all these remain as an enigma.

Racikan Kata dari Dara Prayoga

Sebuah Pesan Tentang Keadaan

 

Bukan sebuah heran, angin laut sore menyejukkan. Bukan mimpi, gemuruh ombaknya terdengar bermelodi. Bukan rahasia, semua terasa seperti itu ketika jatuh cinta. Dan bukanlah keadaan, jika tak bisa membuat yang indah menjadi ketakutan.

Kata orang, cinta sesuatu yang megah. Namun kadang megahnya tertutup keadaan kemudian kalah.

Keadaan di mana pada diri satu orang, atau keduanya terdapat cinta tapi masing-masing atau salah satunya sudah memiliki pasangan. Keadaan di mana dua orang saling sayang, tapi orang tua berkehendak lain. Keadaan di mana dua orang saling cinta, tapi berbeda Tuhan –yang katanya satu–. Keadaan di mana seseorang jatuh cinta, tetapi yang satunya terasa terlalu sempurna untuk dia. Mungkin masih banyak lagi keadaan-keadaan di luar sana yang menyisakan kepahitan.

Mengapa seringkali sebuah cinta tumbuh di keadaan yang tidak memungkinkan? Apakah sebuah cinta adalah tumbuhan yang tidak peduli habitatnya berkeadaan seperti apa, hanya membutuhkan ketulusan? Akan tetapi, apakah ketulusan saja cukup untuk bersama? Tidak, untuk bersama, juga butuh keadaan.

Begitu pula dengan keputusanku memendam perasaan. Ini semua, sedikit banyak karena keadaan. Apa yang tumbuh dalam hati seiring aku memandang senyummu, melihat tawamu, menatap binar matamu, harus aku pendam sendiri.

Selagi menunggu keadaan –yang mungkin tak akan datang–, aku guratkan tinta hati hingga senja menjelang. Aku kemas surat itu dalam beningnya botol ketulusan, dan membiarkannya bebas di luasnya lautan kemungkinan.

“Jika memang jodoh, kita pasti akan bersama.” Ah, akhirnya aku mengatakan itu. Mengatakan kalimat bagi orang yang kalah dalam perjuangan mendapatkan seorang pujaan.

Aku tak ingin menjadikan keadaan sebagai pesakitan. Karena sudah terlalu sering kata itu berlalu-lalang di kisah kehidupan. Kamu boleh caci aku karena mengungkapkan rasa pun tak berani. Tapi mungkin kamu juga tahu, bahwa kadang melawan keadaan tak semudah yang pernah ada dalam mimpi.

Dan biarkan pesan dalam botol ini, tetap menjadi rahasia hati.

-

day #3

hello marshmallow..
today i'm going to share the challenge number 3 ; pictures of something that make you happy
then here it is

i'd love to traveling by using this old bicycle

 having a guy best friend

 to live in tree house is my biggest dream

 to owns a beautiful garden in my backyard

this is the best cake i've ever seen

 london, i'll be there soon..

ney

XX

day #2

hello again, today i'll share the 2nd of the challenge.

day #2 ; song to match your mood today
honestly, i was feeling messed up today, there's something problem that i cant tell you. and this asshole makes me look like a menye menye girl all around the day. too many song that i heard today and it all feel match with my mood today.
but i should pick one, so i guess Taylor Swift - All Too Well is the best for describe my feeling now.
idk but i think some part of the lyric is touching me, it's like she talk to me in some part. just google it please.

and dear someone who has made me a mess, thankyou, thankyou verry much for this complicated thing! you are absolutely succeed! GAAAHHH
sorry for the rant, but seriously i cant handle it by myself i need someone to talk to, but.... helloooooww it's 1:05 am already. i wonder whom i should talk to now.

hhh..
i wish i could sleep now, make a cuddle with my pillow and blanket. okay, i'll probably try it now.
but before i go i would to share a cheesy thing...

bye people,
bye horrible day
goodnight.

day #1 ; introduce yourself, post recent picture of you and 10 random fact about you

please forgive me for temporally ditched this blog and the 30 days challenge for a while. its been such a bouncy , bumpy and very rough days lately. i dont even know how to explain. I was busy for the college exam days and also it's thingy majiggy that unfortunately, i cant ignore. since the challenge has no exact rules, so i think it's better to start this now..

HAI HEHEHE :">

hi there! my name is Neisy Thresna Nesyah. you can just call me neisy, nesyah, ney, and yea.. some of my friends call me jibrut. arif tell you why later :p

10 fact about me :

well i have tell you some of my weird fact in previous post, so let's jump to the rest.

1. omelet lover

yea, i think no one love it more than me. let me tell you, i can live for months with just eat some omelet. that fried eggs always spoil my stomach.

2. i can't squat

this one is embrassing i guess, but for my lovely blogwalkers i'll tell everything in my life:p

well i dont know why i cant do that thing, i always fell my ass down everytime i tried. am i the one ? oh come on.

3. never sleep well with my bedlight off

if you think i have a phobia of the dark, you absolutely wrong. i just cant sleep on the darkness, i mean how can you close your eyes while it feel like you did.

4. europan stuffs lova

I don't think that I sud explain why. Just google it out. europa is such a beautiful continent. All I know is this country inspires me so much. From the smallest traditions to their hugest history. the castle, the kingdom, the people. I feel like I'm in love with europa more and more day by day. who should i blame for making such a too-gorgeous-to-ignore country like that ?

5. talk and sing a lot

This point. I talk (sometimes) so much. btw, I sing songs many more than you can expect me to. In bedroom, bathroom, class....... on the bus. even while my lecturer "singing" their own "songs" :P

6. flowers, i love you

yes, I fucking love that colorfull things so much. I have no idea why can I be so in love with flowers. I find it beautiful everytime i see it. i wish i live in a tree house wich surrounded by flowers.

okay, you can see the rest in my previous post.

feel unfair? i'm the boss here however :p

Look at that! did my first day of challenge! yay!
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30 DAYS OF CHALLENGE

There's this 30 days of challenge that I got from somewhere. I think it's such a fun so why not?

so here's what i'm going to write about starting tomorrow :

• Day #1 . Introduce yourself , post recent picture of you and 10 random facts about you
• Day #2. Song to match your mood today
• Day #3 A picture of something that makes you happy
• Day #4 Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality
• Day #5 Something you dont leave the house without
• Day #6 Love
• Day #7 How you hope your future would be
• Day #8 Something you miss
• Day #9 Your favorite movie
• Day #10 Your favorite picture with your bestfriend
• Day #11 Your dream wedding
• Day #12 Put your iPod on shuffle, and write what memory you had in mind when u heard the songs
• Day #13 Somewhere you'd like to move or visit
• Day #14 Your Childhood facts
• Day #15 What kind of person that attracts you
• Day #16 Your dream conversation with your idol
• Day #17 Dream House
• Day #18 Whats in your head right now
• Day #19 Describe one thing that is located near you
• Day #20 Describe what kind of moment that makes you blush
• Day #21 Give pictures of 5 guys that you find attractive
• Day #22 Your dream bedroom
• Day #23 wrote a letter to someone you know
• Day #24 Nicknames
• Day #25 What kind of person that you find annoying
• Day #26 your favorite place to hang out
• Day #27 what you have wished about today
• Day #28 If you have your own invisibility cloak, what are you going to do with it?
• Day #29 Goals for the next 30 days
• Day #30 Your highs and lows of this month

let's rock it.
EXCITED!!!!!
xx

weird fact about myself

some people might think i'm insane to share weirdness about myself. but no. i think it's interesting to share who you really are. Well actually, it depends on what you consider as weird. My whole life is a series of weird things that i do whether i'm alone or not. Here are some of them that i can think of right now :

1. talking to myself with british accent

this happen almost everytime i'm alone in my room. i dont know why, but i massively love british accent and sometime it makes me look like a crazy 'cause i'm talking to myself. i love to emulate someone who speaking british accent, it's heard impressive.

2. ponder and muse

it's like i'm addicted to musings. soft music on the earphone, a gentle breeze, and relax. you'll find the gateway of dream world at that condition. you're free to imagine about your future, or just flashback the time remembering your childhood. then you'll find your self unwittingly threw a smile. it's always make me feel better.

3. fangirling

when i'm crushing someone (celebrity) i would like to stalk their timeline daily, download much of their photos, scan it one by one, hug it, kiss it, and sometime i'm screaming because of it. yes i know it's tickled but trust me it's fun to do.

4. make a list

i have a short term memory so  i decided to make a list about everything, yes everything. shoplist, schedule, resolution, project, memo, i even have a list of friendship. lmao. i love to make a list with colorfull paper and markers then stick it up to my reminder board. that was very helpful.




There are a lot of weird things i do when i'm alone or even with people around. I like being weird with people i'm comfortable with. I won't bother to let them know the weirdest side of me that they might never expect. That's how you can tell that i'm being very comfortable with someone. Anyway, don't get me wrong. Sometimes i pretend to be normal, but it gets boring. So i go back to being me :))


be weird be you
xx

blissfulness

"so plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers" - anizabelle

i love this quote so much. it's describe how easy happiness is.

Though you might not be able to count it or keep it permanently, but I guess it is so easy to achieve. Being able to do things that you really like and enjoy most either with or without company, even maybe just by doing nothing.
Funny how I found that the smell of fresh new bed sheets and blankets can make me happy, the sound of rain, a good aftertaste of a novel, dinner with your grandfather, or buying your favorite flower.
 

Happiness is THAT easy and THAT simple. I guess it depends on how you view it. As for me, it doesn’t have to be extraordinary or extravagant. It can be found in the simplest form. I feel grateful and thankful for that too.

 i love to posting this because well... i don't know why . but it's make me feel relieved. i've just watch my favorites youtube chanel and i found an affection between brothers and sister. that's so cute. and some part of that video make me relized that love is not only from your mate. you can spread love to your family, so
make your self happy and contented! Rather than waiting and wailing for something to happen, or even someone to make it happen. anyway i gonna post something random soon, just for having fun and get rid of boredom.

Happiness is within your reach.

Yes, It’s on the tip of your nose!





thanks anizabelle

xx

Idols

you must have some inspiring people in your life, aren't you?
yeah, someone who can motivated you, who make you feel exited, or should i say it as an Idol.
you have one? good. but it's not about yours, it's about mine. because it's my blog so everything is mine HAHA

oke, let's start.
for note ; i'm not sort by i like the most, it's just randomly sorted.

voila..
have you ever heard "JACKSGAP" ? yeah, they are the owner of it. the twins Jack Harries and Finn Harries.
what is JACKSGAP ?
JACKSGAP is a youtube chanel of theirs. they share about their life on there. i love the way they shared, it's funy. they're look like loving each other so much. they inspiring me to proud of my life as it is. owh i wish i had a twin brother *SIGH*

so.. who doesn't know him ? you don't know?
poor you.
my beloved imaginary boyfriend, Raditya Dika.
writer, actor, director, author, entrepreneur, stand up comedian. yes, it's all his job.
what a success man, uh ?
started from blog author, become a successful man who has 5 famous books and 2 movies, created by himself. cool? it's INCREDIBLE!!
why did i loved him?
check his timeline, read his books, watch his films. then you'll know why.

owhh my goddddd
I-HAVE-TO-BREATHE. OH-WHY-ARE-THEY-SO-FUCKING-CUTE. I-AM-BREATHLESS-OHHH

uhmm, i'm sorry, i always fangirling everytime i look at them, at my gorgeous princes, One Direction.
they're so cute, they're so cool, they're amazing, they have voice like an angel, they're handsome, they're funny, they're love each other not for a bussiness or just for formality. they're loving each other as brothers, they're sweet as a family. and the most importantly, they're proud of their love to their mom:)
and i love them so much xx

okay i think you still feel unfamiliar about this woman.
she is Anizabella Lesmana, mix-blood of Indonesian-Dutch.
she is emerging artist. but i'm not love her as a artist, i love her as a blog author. her blog is so inspiring me, she's like a mind-reader of mine. she write everything what i feel and give me solution without i asked. i regard her as my spiritual teacher.
i wish i could make a friend with her, that's must be so fun!

so if you don't know this woman, i think you live in remote vilages.
JK Rowling, the author of Harry Potter's world.
i wonder how this woman could creating a briliant masterpiece. what an imaginative woman!
i think no need to elaborate for this one, everyone know her greatness already.

note :
dear Mrs. Rowling, thankyou verry much, you had been make my wonderfull chilhood with your masterpiece. if you read this, i would verry delight  if you willing to follow me at twitter or appreciate this blog, or you may give me one of those your books collection, or invite me for a dinner. (oh forget it. she don't even know my exist)

and the last one..
the most inspiring woman of mine. my queen, my guard, my love, my precious, my everything, my mom.
isn't she lovely ? of course she is
this women has been keeping me with love in 17 years. and i want it longer.
very strong woman, she is not perfect but make my life perfect.
nothing compares to a love of mother.
thanks mom, for everything you give to me, daddy, and my sister and brother. i love you so much:*

they are the idols of mine

so, what 'bout yours ?

xx

Realistic and Unrealistic Dream

i'm a deamer i have tons of dream, i have tons of interest, and somehow, it scares me. i think about things a lot of fantasizing. somehow, it can be absurd or can be not. but i love dream and of course, make it come true.

My realistic dream is to be a writer. a bussiness woman. a tacher. a good wife and a good mom. become a strong independent women who living happily and spread happiness to other people, especialy my parents.

My unrealistic dream is to stay young forever. become a florist. and owns a nice garden in my backyard. who owns a tame tiger and a parrot, surrounded by love. to own a unicorn. to own a humongous library filled with thousands great books. to wear a different fancy dress everyday. to travel the world using a minivan. to live in tree house. to live in narnia.

isn't it a cool dream ? no doubt i am a great dreamer i guess.

so people, what's your dream ? don't be afraid to dream. sometime deaming would make you feel better. just dream ! and make it real in your own way:)

happy dreaming!

xx

dull day

it's 14:54 now
the time when you can see the gold sun, when you feel thirsty everytime, the time when you feel solitude.
the time when you want to have someone to talk to.
is it just me or today were so dull. i wondering what people are doing, all over the world.
and me? i just lying in my bed, listen to the same music all around the day, blabbering on this blog. how ironic, uh ?

i miss those day when i woke up early, take a bath when dew has not dropped yet, eat my breakfast in the class, make a lots laughters with all those people. i think i miss someplace called School.
i wish i could make a cuddle with my bestfriends now. tell some stupid stories, make a loud giggle.

humph..

these dull day make me so weak.
my day feel so awfull, awkward, mentionless, clueless, everything was collorless. well i guess i better stop blabbering and grounching here. no good.
i would feel better when i get my daily cafeine.
thankyou and good evening.
take a good care of yourself people!

gotta go shower

and

stumble upon the day!

Super Moodboster

This is things that never fail to make me feel better, or should i call it ; Super Moodboster. so blogwalkers, take your pen and note then save this as a record!. make sure you didn't miss anything!

1. Talking to my bestfriends

2. Laughters

3. Money

4. Internet

5. One Direction

6. do it all and repeat it :)

xx

Q & A : Much of One Direction

mari kita lakukan sedikit interview mengenai pria pria tampan yang tidak lain tidak bukan adalah pacar pacar gua mwehehehe:3

so... this is it *drum role*

the greatest group band ever, One Direction

aren't they cute? :)

okay, let's start the question tme.

1. Who is your favorite member ?

okay, i hate this first question wich always asking me the favoritest of mine. oh, come on i am a directioner not a directionator, so i can't pick one. let me tell you, I AM A DIRECTIONER. sometime i fell in love with Zayn, sometime it supposed to be Harry, occasionaly it was Louis, or Liam, and i'm crushing at Niall periodically.

2.  What is your favorite song from each of the boys’s albums?

Up All Night :  Moment, What makes you beatiful, One thing, More than this, Taken, Gotta be you, Up all night

Take Me Home : Little things, Live while we're young, Last first kiss, Heart attack, she's not afraid, cmon cmon, Loved you first, Back for you, Kiss you, Irresestible

unreleased : I shoud've kissed you, Magic, Nobody compares to you, Stand up 

  

3. Have any of the boys’s songs made you cry/tear up before? 

 Little Things have made me broke down on tears once. that song just too sweet.

4. Is there one song of the boys’s that you have a connection with?

 LITTLE THINGS. GOTTA BE YOU. THERE IS TOO MANY SONGS THAT I CAN RELATE TO!

5. Do you argue to defend the boys when people bring them up & badmouth them? 

yes i do, i'll defend them till the end. i'm a potective fan.

6. Do you like the boys’s style from 2010, 2011, 2012, or now better? 

 well they looks much nicer with their 2012 look, i love that bald headed of Liams and zayn's quiff is so adorable. but yet they looks is still mesmerizing i guess, nothing can make me love them less.

7. If you had one of the boys to marry you, who it's gotta be ?

now this one is tricky, i cant decide who it's gotta be. they have their own greatness, but if i have to. it would probably Liam, it's gotta be Liam:)

8. Your view about their girlfriend ?

well i respect all of them. especially ellounor, i ship them forever. as long as my boys happy with them i would be happy too. even though Ms. Swift had once gotten on my nerves, literally.

9. If you had the chance to dating the boys for one day, what would you do?

 at first i would like to having breakfast with niall at Nando's, tell some joke, playing guitar, change some lyric, ohh there will be a lots of laugthers. after that i wanted to hang out with Louis, looking for some outfits and nice stuffs, shopping, and enjoy a cup of cold milkshake with him. and then i'd love to cooking for luch with harry, make some fun conversation, touching his dimpples, playing with his curly, owh god. and the next i would ask Liam to take the air with me and Loki, we would play romp, hide and seek, bicycling, we will having much fun. and before we go home, me and liam devoured a cup of ice cream, by use a fork:) . Zayn would be the finale here, we would love to do a candle light dinner, dancing under the moonlight, look at his eyes and tell how much i love him, and he looking me back then said "i love you more, as much as i love my family" and make a friendly cuddle at last. aww THAT WOULD BE THE BEST DATE IN MY LIFE. if just i'm not imagining too much :''''''D

 10. Write a message to the boys!

hey boys!!

i just wanted you to know, to be a directioner is changed my life in so many different ways. i have love you since i don't know when. you just suddenly come and stole my heart, can i get it back please? or may be no. i love Mr. Tomlinson's randomness, i love Mr. Styles's charmness, i love the innocence of Mr. Horan, and i love Mr. Payne the wise as much as i love the vain of Mr. Malik. i love you all no matter what. you are trully madly crazy seriously totaly completely awesome!! thanks for your presence.

kiss and hug from me

love you. 

Month of war.

hhhhmmmmppphhh ahhhh...
bau ini, bau bulan juni yang sengit. bau.. peperangan, ya PERANG ! *drum role*

pagi ini bahkan gua bangun dengan keadaan tempat tidur yang kacau, semua bantal berjatuhan dibawahh. Ehm.. oke, itu biasa. tapi ini serius. bulan juni ini akan begitu banyak pertumpahan darah. ada 3 medan yang harus gua lewati hari ini. bukan, bukan medan yang di sumatera utara itu.
ini adalah medan tempur. MEDAN TEMPUR. MEDAN TEMPUR. jelas?

ujian SBMPTN 2 hari, dan UJIAN poltekkes. dan beberapa ujian lainnya.
iya, itu memang mengerikan. nampaknya bulan juni akan penuh gejolak buat gua. gua harus secepatnya pasang strategi, siapkan amunisi, dan beberapa bekal.
for i know, this june is "Month of War" not a "Month of Lose"


by the way, today i woke up with alarm blustering on my face. i wouldn't hate my alarm clock so much if it woke me up with the smell of coffee and freshly baked bread.

humph..

i guess it's time to get some relax with a cup of hot creamy cino

good morning xx

mellow afternoon with the drizzle in

it is one of those wet nightfalls when i relize that the sun has been sink before i saw the rainbow after drench.

recalling that today has been over just as usual,
that i spent the day with some acoustic songs and lying in my bed, that i could feel the smell of the rain untill it let up, that i still can't see the rainbow for a months even it's rainy weeks.

sitting in terrace, writing this silience. uncertain what i have to do tomorrow, waiting for this obscurity day come to an end. However i did promise my self that i should post about this on my blog someday. Something about yesterday that i found very much bewildering.

for i know, when the world is rotating in same orbit but you didn't feell the same day anymore. i found my self on different soul, i loose the sense of humor, i can't feel that butterfly on my stomack when i see some fiction imagination. i felt transformed into tedious person, even though i do something interest thing like on my chilhood i still can't get that sense, it just.. diferent.


it is quite annoying, just asking to my self what happen to me. wacting cartoon is not interest me anymore, i didn't feel adictive on any games for a long time. yesterday i found my self wacth a business chanel on tv, let my new season manga comic neglected, buying a woman fashion magazine.

Blah

what's going on to me ? i'm feel like a stanger to my self.

am i growing up ? become a woman ? come on, i think it's too fast. i even have just graduated from high school. Moreover, i started comfortably to all of this. owh great! i'm a woman already.

 whatever it is, i hope it will be good.

 writing this feels better

guess it's time for take a bath

good night.

anemia

Tadinya sih mau blogging tapi begitu natap layar buyar semua konsep tulisannya -___- . ya sudahlah.. yuk mari kita nge-nutals aja. 

Anyway gua baru kelar UAS nih. Capeeek book, senen sampe sabtu sekolah, sore nya les pulang malem, hari minggu TO, terus bentar bentar LUN bentar bentar UAS. Lama lama malek gua liat LJK -_-

Rasanya tangan gua sengklek tiap hari kerjaannya bulet buletin jawaban di kertas. belum lagi kalo ketemu pengawas yang killer, bunyi dikit aja bisa dipelototin stengah jam. Nggak mikir banget kali ya.. guru aja Cuma bisa nguasain 1 matapelajaran, sedangkan kita sebagai siswa disuruh mahamin 13 matapelajaran yang entah isinya apa. Dan tanpa toleransi semua mata pelajaran itu nilainya mesti diatas 7. kadang rasanya rumus itu sampe meleber dan kececeran di lantai. Bayangkan.. anak kelas tiga tuh dituntunt untuk mahamin materi materi baru, yang setiap materinya terdapat sekitar 6-7 subbab, dan setiap subbab itu terdapat 3-5 rumus yang mesti lo hafal. Nggak cuman itu, kita masih disuruh untuk flashback pelajaran2 kelas 1 dan 2 kemaren. Belum lagi kabar tentang  UN 20 paket + 10 paket cadangan yang selama ini beredar itu bukanlah sekedar isapan jempol belaka, itu kenyataan, itulah yang bakal gua hadapi nanti. Dan semenjak kelas tiga ini gua menemukan cara efektif untuk menghilangkan setress, contohnya cara tertawa yang ujung intonasinya diberi sedikit penekanan sebagai peluapan perasaan kita. Maka kurang lebih akan terdengar seperti ini :

“hahahaHAHAAAARRRGGGHHHH..”

Manusia mana yang nggak pengen gigit tembok dikasih cobaan seberat ini :’) . sampe sampe kemaren gua cek darah di PMI gitu, tadinya sih mau donor darah, tapi pas di cek tensinya katanya gabisa soalnya tensinya rendah, Cuma 90,  ternyata gua sedang mengalami anemia. Gua pulang dan lapor ke nyokap, “bu, aku darah rendah, tensinya 90.” “90 ?? kamu nggak pusing? Kalo ibu udah nggak kuat ngangkat kepala itu mah.” Untungnya kalo soal penyakit gua memang tipikal nggak dirasa. Jadi gua nggak perlu merayap gara gara nggak kuat angkat kepala. kalo gua bukan ciptaan allah mungkin gua udah konslet dari kemaren kemaren. Ya... sekarang gua Cuma bisa pasrah aja sama allah, berdo’a, dan usaha pastinya. Gua yakin kok, usaha itu berbanding lurus dengan hasil akhir. Jadi apapun hasilnya itu adalah buah dari usaha gua selama ini. 

Yap.. segini dulu ya tulisan random nya..

Udah plong nih rasanya, buat yang udah baca makasih ya.. :)